Somethimes is so difficult.. i say something ad the others don't understand what i mean, or i act in a particular way and someone don't understand again what i mean or what i feel!! It's my fault or not? is something i need to work on.... i want people understand what i've inside but the problem is that when it happen ususally i'm to busy or to concentrated on other stuffs and i let things going on.

Also in that case.. probably i should have been more sincere, but sincere is not the right world, i mean transparent and not paranoic..but obviously i didn't do it!!!!

I can't understad why i always need to be strong, i'm not so strong, i have feelings, and i don't need nothing so special, i'm not pretending anything, i'm adaptable but maybe i'm not able to chose. maybe that's my problem. I made wrong choices and i'm afraid i'll do it again and again and i'll be sad and unsatisfied. I always wish that something will change, that something wll be as i want, but that something is not under my influence, i can't control it..... is not a problem of being lucky or not, it's just a matter of want we want for ourself..... what i want? i needto think about it