My level of stress is dangerously increasing....
Today I'm really tired, maybe also because I'm sick, and tomorrow I've an exam... I'm not prepared, at all!!! But I'll try, the worst thing that could happen is that I'm not going to pass the test.... anyway I'll try
This matter is s useless "Economia Agraria", I'll never need it, neithr if i'll work as farmer.
I've headache and my mouth hurt, i don't know why.
I'm looking forward the end of this week, i want to go to Milan and relax a bit with my friends... yes we'll work but anyway we'll be together.
I want to go to EBC, i need to feel the network and i need to remember to myself why i'm doing this....
Purpose of the evening: think positive and go to sleep early trying to sleep as much as possible and wake up well...ready for the exam!!

today

Life is so strange, you never know what could happen... one day you are sad and the day after happy as never before.
Little things makes me smile as a child, and gives me a sincere joy.... Talking with people around the world ( for work reasons most of the times) is so cool... understand other culture, talk about traditions and what they are living roght now.
Today I talked about Ramadan with Zine from Tunisia, and we talked about how he feels, i think I would never be able to respect all that rules and i admire who can!! I talked also with Armine, from Armenia, she loves Italy so much... actually a lot o people love italy:)

It has been a good day, i don't know how but i didn't think so much about stupid things and i studied, i took time for myself and sayed happy birthday to Samy :) have a nice night girl, see you next month :D

Now it's time to study again... but before there's a person I want to put here in this post. She is in India now and she will come back in Italy next year.She is living a great experience of internship in a company in the HP department, she found her way, Lauretta I'm proud of you, and I hope you'll have the time of your life there. Send e an email when you'll have time :)
I want to go away from Italy next year, I don't know where, but far I hope, south america or Africa... my first 2 choices but I'm opened to all the possibilities. Who knows? Maybe I'll stay in Italy.... i don't know, the time to chose is not so far but not so close too so ..... RELAX... TAKE IT EASY !!!!! :D

Born on saturday

Una grande tenacia che porta spesso a grandi risultati, negli studi e nella vita, caratterizza i nati nel giorno dedicato a Saturno.
Dirigenti o capi di Stato sono spesso nati di sabato.
La loro dedizione al lavoro può spesso portare a trascurare gli affetti e il lato romantico della vita.
Per fortuna, il loro fascino rende loro estremamente facile sedurre nuove prede con cui passare notti di fuoco.

my days

My life in this days


Wake up at 7:30 ....I hate my alarm... it rings every 5 minutes until when i woke up.... maybe i should love it











Coffè.... the first of the day...at 8:00.... then i need another one at 10 another after lunch and sometimes another in the afternoon







AAAAHHHH, the best thing when you need to study......



All the day, until 19:00 PM studing... nothing to add... just boring







And then... back home and start working until i finish ( generally 3 hours) ....

Stressed? just a prayer for you

I'm angry

I'm so....tired....angry....irritated....disappointed....bad feelings, really bad. I've a view of things that is not that one so I can't manage to go on like this, I promise to myself at the end of summer not to be paranoic, not to think to much to the same things ( seghe mentali). I promise to myself to be serene, to be calm, to find my way... but now? what's happening??? I don't heve what i need or maybe i have what i don't need...yes maybe is life this...so solution? throw away or push away what makes me feel in this way.... but I CAN'T!!!! AAAAAHHHHH I'm really really angry, i hope that you will have what you deserve....
but the good point in this sitation is that day bay day i'm understanding better who is my friend and who's not!!!! for sure, i'm learning so anyway i've something to thank you...

Paper doll

Crazy day, i've done a lot of thing and i still have a lot of work/study to do.... but i need to take some minute of "mental break" not to think to that things.
I was thinking to some friend's behaviour and my final conclusion is.... I'm so happy to be me!!! I made mistakes, sometimes i do bad things but in the end i'm fine with myself, and my doll is so childish, it isn't able to talk with me and argue if necessary, and it's ok, it doesn't matter to me, anyway...it's just a paper doll.

Weekend of parties....

First was Melo's Birthday, we were in Sagana, at Samaria's house and we eat and drink a lot of things, so fun :) kalashnikow destoyed one of my legs but i'm still alive :p Me and Iole started dancing it but noone could follow us, it's too fast too crazy :p
There were a surprise...Virgina was there, she came back from Congo just for 15 days and it was amaziong talking with her, about her life there, her activities and she seems so serene, i can say for sure that she is different from 4 month ago, when she left. We take a picture, me Melo and Virgy, girl you're so inspiring to us, and we missed you . Good luck for your life.
Another good thing of this night is that i saw again my frinds, Marco, dario, Jole, we enjoyed the night until 2 a.m. and then we back home together :)


The day after ( yesterday) was my parents day. 25 five years together!! Cousins, uncles, friends all together to remember that day. It was a nice day, the cerimony was simple and i'm happy of this choice and the dinner was great. The place was amazing and the atmosphere really informal and happy.I was the official photographer and i took a lot of picture, so funny :)
The only thing I was sad of is that a lot of people missed becouse they live far now, but they were on ours mind for sure :)

Today i woke up late and now I'm going to start studing.. boring Sunday as always...tomorrow all the day at the biblio, hoping it will be usefull :)

I feel i'm ready again :) yes I am. Today has been a good day, 2 great news for my @work, results start to come, and i should feel happy, and for sure I am but I'm so tired now, all the day studing.... so boring. I worked too, finally I've a good balance, and I'm happy of the relationship I'm building with my LCs :) Personally speaking I'm really happy and satisfied, I've good feelings, and i feel powerfull, I've everything I need and I'm so lucky :) I'm just not sad but a bit disappointed about the behaviour of some people around me, so childish, so immature but it doesn't matter to me, i'm sooooo serene.

My lovely Martina sent me this picture.... how many things changed from that days, things i've never thought could happen... life is so strange... so crazy.... but the best things are always the one you never expect :)!!!!

I feel happy and it could be strange but i fell complete !! Thank you guys, i miss you all, I love my MC, i love my friends :)

Everything started here....milan 14, pre meeting for the best internationa conference of the year... :) after 5 days of HARD work we were ready to start the adventure and after a night spent slleping on the floor at the airport of bergamo, we saw Istanbul the 20 !!!!
And after a day spent going around the city and a night at the hostel we started with the meeting...dancing of course

And then opening cerimony and sessions, and sessions and again sessions.... paty at night, networking and meeting friends that are now on the other side of the planet......

Official moments, emotions, feeling i'll never forget!!!
After 10 days of crazy rithm, sleepy and tired but with a bag full of memories we were ready to be back home.... just 3 words on my mind

I WAS THERE